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[19 Nov 2006|03:14am] |
im so sick of this shit. friends, family, everything. everyone is bullshit.
i went out with friends tonite. and ended up breaking one of my friends face in.
i swear to god i miss my old life. love my lifestyle. but i miss people who really truely matter to me
True agents of change.
The living proof,
i put all my faith in you.
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[11 Jun 2006|06:09pm] |
holy shit. its a post from me? your stunned i know........
ta bitches.....
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[17 Feb 2006|02:01pm] |
losing friends is the best
really
i fucking love it
to rumors.
really
what better than that.
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[14 Feb 2006|03:53pm] |
Dreams In Squares and Circles....
"-choke on your hellos
and die on your goodbyes-"
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[10 Feb 2006|01:25pm] |
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I'd love to drown you in a sea of your own blood
kisses to me and watch you choke on it
how many songs do you wish to be written about you?
this isn't the first and it wont be the last baby
how well you fake a smile and some tears to match
you wanted everything and more
everything is ruined
when i have you again
your're mouth gets sewn up forever
i'll never let you go
Mrs. hardcore fashion show
kiss your drama queen days good-bye
those days are so long gone and this day so are you
this is the last night your neck is not serrated
this charade is getting older than suicide attempts
say you love me
say you love me and write it in your blood
and you know what
say it again
see how fast your chest collapses
we are all the lucky ones
and i'll decorate myself with your insides
and i can wear your face as a mask
dont cry
you just got what you wanted
how cool you look now
how much better would you look with your heart lodged
inside the brand new cut in your throat
your body is as blue as your hair
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[29 Jan 2006|05:54pm] |
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A discontent for the vile and the wretched
Will bring forth reparations of the most severe degree
Things will change
And I will be the catalyst to
Weed out the weak and beget strength of character
Glorifying minds and souls
Celebrate the spirit while denying breath and life
To those who would choose to live depraved
Depravity, a thing of the past
A life not in vain
I am the end, I am beginning life anew
My soul is free from weakness
Free
Refined as gold
A standard to be met by all
As we embrace righteousness, we embrace life
Purified, united. set aside from the majority
I will serve as an example to man as hope
By defending those I love with my life
I stand here bold and strong
As a testament to my abstinence
My heart is open; this slate is clean.
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[13 Jan 2006|04:55pm] |
good news ladies and gents.
we have confirmed dates for the return of the ever so unpopular
DANCE FLOOR MASSACRE
here's the plan. we booted adam and took on a buddy of mine named john. ladies.....he's loaded in the loading dock so suck it up. well. or something like that.
we'll be spending the next 2 months getting back down to the dirty and writing you some new dance tunes.
get ready to dirty up your blouses people.
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[06 Jan 2006|05:32pm] |
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bat your eyes 1000 times
ive dreamed of touching your face
i never thought it could be this good
ill never forget you
not in a million years
something about how good you look underwater
like the dream ive had
since you looked the other way
but now you can only look up cant you?
my angel
you look so scared
a few more bubbles
a little more effort
and you'll be home
its only water i promise
so you think they'll miss you
say how they once touched your hair
besides to brush the mud out
how beautiful you are
atleast till they find you
you'll always remember my wavy face
and ill always remember that lovely shade of blue you wore that night
that tag on your toe says " I love you "
I loved you
something about how good you look
under the water
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[03 Jan 2006|01:10am] |
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well you know that saying that when it rains it pours. how i see it is when it snows and they say 4-7 inches, it really means were probably going to get a fucking blizzard and im going to make no money. fuck it, ill sled to work.
anyways, nothing new at all has happened. christmas was bland for the most part. new years was a bust cause eric didnt come over. plus shit got stolen at my house, so heads are rolling right and left.
ive figured the lot of my friends are scared of me. not always fun.
me and chris are well. past 5 months so this is actually a relationship. other relationships have flushed themselves down a 450 lbs. asscracks toliet. but thats just find. its where that person belongs. me and chris are starting to get bearings on plans for the big day and whatnot.
besides that i work. too much. im loaded with money coming soon.
donnie comes back tomorow. so im stoked out.
and its almost time to condition for surfing.
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[12 Dec 2005|03:27pm] |
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lie awake
things will be better the moment you cant wake up
by the way
when did you realize we're better off without you
you'r lying tongue cant spit filth now
my how the weather changes
hiding your knives behind your back
to strategically place them in mine
when you get home...we are now severed
the glass has been broken for the last time
pulling your tongue til it rips from your face
you've always been ugly but not as nauseating as you look now
i hope you slit your fucking wrists to save me the effort of writing your suicide note
your inspiration world of lies
i see your failure in my eyes
tears burn an open wound
burn away the memories of you
tip toeing to avoid your selfish sob story
after everything we've been through
we've got to crawl...crawl back on our knees
you left with everything you ever wanted
you left us and now you get two thumbs up
you're gettin two thumbs up
you get an F for effort
no more sunday migraines
your eyes will forever sulk with all you've burned down
you think your're so cool now
cause i left you now
and left you crying to yourslef
and i cant help but laugh because you brought this on yourself again
in this clip theres 13 ways to say your're sorry
well there's nothing you can say to repair all the damage you have made
all in all you'll never follow through with it
won't you share your revelations
your're ugly and no one likes you
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[09 Dec 2005|03:37pm] |
tomorow im going to scream so loud
i hope i break your glass ears
i defy you
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[07 Dec 2005|02:11pm] |
denver
salt lake
boise
seattle......fuck that place. and the people in it.
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[20 Nov 2005|03:59pm] |
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so i hate lj now. but ill let you know whats up.
yesterday me and chris woke up at the ass crack of dawn to go see shai huluds last/reunion show. it was in poughkeepsie, ny so it was a 3 and a half hour drive. i drove all the way up. we got in and met some kids at the gas station up there around like 1. its like 18 bands playing. just a few playing were from a second story window, number 12 looks like you, 100 demons, my bitter end, red chord, darkest hour, walls of jerhico, shai hulud, and converge. so show was sick. i got to sing my favorite shai hulud song with van deer the lead singer. saw pete for a second or two, got to sing with the chick from walls too. it was chris's christmas present to me. and its the best present i ever got. some rough stuff on the way home jsut because it was a four hour drive back after a crazy show with lots of dancing and being mosh king didley. but its all good. today i only have a half day of work and then tomorow im cleaning the whole house so its presentable for noelles pop.
i do have to say. im so much better of in rhode island with all the right people now. then with anyone who was up here before i moved.
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[03 Oct 2005|03:29pm] |
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bleh.
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[21 Sep 2005|03:05pm] |
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[31 Aug 2005|06:08pm] |
bitches and snickers bars.
butterfinger buckwild and im out.
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[24 Aug 2005|12:48pm] |
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the trip sucked.
i missed chris the whole time.
loved seeing the boys.
went back to work.
i love money.
but not more than i love christine.
have to start planning for her birthday.
later on.
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tim to the driving range for his birthday. big storm coming.
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[31 Jul 2005|01:43am] |
an amazing day.
with an amazing girl.
finally in a relationship that will be worth it.
off to bed.
happy.
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